Brothers and Antigone

So I have gotten to the end of book IX where Grushenka believes he is innocent and promises to love him. This book has been kind of boring to me or im just a boring person until now. I like mystery and thriller stories and at the part im at it kind of seems like one of those stories. You dont know for sure who has murdered Fyodor but Dmitri is the number one suspect. I mean he looks pretty suspisious to me with all the money he suddenly had but supposedly was from his locket and the pestal he had and how much he hated Fyodor for his secret affair with Grushenka and the whole inherritance thing. I know its not him though because the author wouldnt make it that easy to figure out, the author wants you to really think about who you think it is. As of right now I would guess Grigory's wife just becuase of what Dmitri did to Grigory and Grigory's wife called in and said something about Fyodor's murder. As I was reading book VIII, it made me feel sorry for Dmitri. He seemed like he was really really in love with Grushenka since he wanted to kill himself after he found out she was with her former love...thats true love right there, you cant live without someone. Which brings me to the story Antigone. It was a tragic love story. Personally I hate reading plays because they are hard for me to understand. It seemed like Antigone was a rebel and did whatever the king and nurse told her not to do. She knew what she was getting into and seemed like she wanted to die. She was brave because instead of freting about death she talked to the guard about his life. She did talk about how he thought she was going to die but she didnt seem scared. Her fiance also died for her because he could not live without her, thats the kind of man i want to marry someday because you know they are in love if they would die for you. It was a sad ending for the king however because he ended up all alone since his wife killed himself so I would say the biggest tragedy was king ceron ending up alone and having to live with what had happened to the whole family.

A bunch of random stuff from class that i will blog

So last week we talked about memorizing things. At my school we had to memorize a bible verse every week in middle school and recite it to the class. The ones that stuck to me where the ones that really had alot of meaning in my life. Romans 8:28 And we know in all God works for the good of those who love him who have been called according to his purpose. I love that verse and recite it to myself whenever something bad happens in my life. And when something bad happens its called a tragedy. I really do think you cant have happiness without tragedy. No ones and i mean no ones life is perfect. I mean gosh I thought Tiger Woods had a perfect life...beautiful wife and kids, a great career, good morals and boy was I wrong. People may appear perfect on the outside and no one on this planet has a perfect life. I believe you dont really know what life is unless you experience some kind of tragedy. You feel so many emotions when it happens and in my case some tragedies turn out good. For example when my aunt died. We were all so sad to see her go but we knew she was in a better place free of pain and suffering. when I looked up the buddha term but I could not find it. I did look up buddism and what its about and what I got out of it was they wish to be happy and stop suffering of all living things even insects. I could put myself in a buddist shoes cause even though Im a Christian im not a closed minded person. I know everyone has their own opinions and thoughts just like I do. If I were a buddist I would probably be in a big city tring to stop some kind of suffering. For example trying to stop the cruelness between humans and animals and just trying to make peace. I would do it in a kind and compassionate way like talking to people about animal cruelty and how selfish it is. I would try to stop war and unite everyone together. I would pray to Buddha and ask for his guiding. I honestly dont know much about buddist but I feel like that was a good example. Also today we talked aobut how magflies only live for one day. If I knew I was gunna live for only 24 hours I think I would get all my family and friends together. We would all go bungy jumping, skydiving and eat ice cream till I throw up and probably twice baked potatoes too. I would go fishing and hiking one last time and spend the whole day with the people I love!

The worst day of my life!

So I woke up that day, it was the day before new years eve last year 2008, and my dad was in tears. He told me aunt Thea was not going to make it. That was his sister and she had been battling cancer for a year and a half. The whole family was bawling and the whole day was it depressing. That same day my bunny, Phebii, died. I love animals and when one of my pets die its like the end of the world. Then later that night me, my mom, my dad, and two sisters had to go say goodbye to my aunt. In all my life iv never had to do something that hard. The whole Dyk side of the family were in the room with her and said our goodbyes. We sat beside her and prayed. She was such a strong christian woman and we all knew that she was going to a better place. It was just so hard knowing this was going to be the last time I was going to see her on earth. I woulnt see her at grandmas house for Sunday lunch, at family bbqs, or holiday gatherings. I loved my aunt and I really hope I never have to say goodbye to a family member again, but Im so thankful that she believed Christ died for us. Aunt thea and my bunny were so close to my heart and I will never forget either of them.

Brothers karamozov

I have not quite finished the book but im getting close. As I read through book one and two, I start to dislike Fyodor Karamazov. The professor told us to tell why. I dont like how he marries a girl and then has orgies. I dont like how he has children and could care less about all of them. I dont like how after his first wife days he goes out to the streets and celebrates. And I think he was very disrespectful when they went to the monastery. I also find him degrading of women, like they are sex toys or something. I didnt like him from the get go. I dont know if thats what the author wanted you to think of him, thats just my opinion. I think Dmitri is a strong person. He really fights for what he wants....his inherritance and Grushenka. I think Ivan is a great character in the novel. He has certain beliefs but he also listens to what others have to say also. I know that I can relate to Ivan in a way. He has many doubts on God and questions his reasoning for things. I can remeber when I questioned my faith and why God does the things he does. I think everyone has those questions at some point in their lives. Even Alyosha, who is this very religious man, questions Gods reasoning in the novel. I know some people think Alyosha is boring and a "goody toshoe", I think everyone needs those kind of people in your life and the book would be extremely boring without Alyosha. He shows that even in time of trouble and doubt, God is still there. God works in mysterious ways even if its not exactly nice he has a reason for everything, and Alyosha knows that. Zosima states, before he dies, that along with his brother the bible had a great influence on his life. That made me think of the day in class where we talked about books that changed your life. When Zosima dies and his body decays and smells, Alyosha wonders why God would humiliate such a great religious leader like that. Then later he has a dream that Zosima says Alyosha has saved Grunshenka and given her salvation. That kind of things do happen in real life and it just made me think of past incidents that have happened in my life. Its incidents like Ivan says he doesnt inderstand. Why does God let the suffering of children happen. No one knows why except God and he has a plan and purpose for everyone on this planet.

Reading the spark notes

Reading Brothers karamozov on spark notes is like doing a puzzle pictures with pieces missing. I feel like each piece is an important part of the puzzle and with pieces missing you might not see the whole picture. When you read the brothers karamozov on spark notes there are alot of little things missing and I feel like you wont get the whole feeling of the book if you just read it on spark notes. I want to see the whole picture not the picture with pieces missing.

Book that changed my life!

The one book that really changed my life is the bible. Before I really committed myself to Christ, I never really read the bible unless it was at youth group or church. But now that I actually dig into the book it has made so many changes in my life. Its a total guide for my life and I dont know what I would do with out it. It makes me feel safe when Im scared because I feel God's presence with me as I read it. It helps me decide right from wrong. And best of all its helping me prepare eternity with the Lord. I feel like this book has the biggest effect on people, on christians and non-christians.

My found poetry from excel pt!

So as I was sitting at my desk I found a potential poem. "If spine or neck diagnosis, if female, bring sports bra or bathing suit top for evaluation, otherwise a gown will be used." and I came up with........

Spine
Neck
Spine
Neck
evaluation for female
sports bra, bathing suit top
evalution for female
will gown be used
Spine
Neck
Spine
Neck
DIAGNOSIS

Rough draft of my love sonnet: To my boyfriend of 6 years!

This love started in high school freshman year
Didn't know this love would be serious
Now I can not stand when you are not near
For everday makes me more curious

You know how to make me laugh when I'm sad
I love that you take me on dates fishing,
and greet me with flowers when I am mad,
and the way it feels when we are kissing

I couldn't imagine life without you
I still think of everything we've gone through,
but there is nothing that could break us two
Together we have and will stay, who knew?

I would love to someday be Mrs. Lee
but not until you get on that one knee

Found poetry

Found poetry is a type of poetry created by taking words, phrases, and sometimes whole passages from other sources and reframing them as poetry by making changes in spacing and/or lines, or by altering the text by additions and/or deletions. I have never heard of this kind of poetry but I love it. This will probably be my favorite assignment of the year! I also would like to add, I thought it was so funny when the girl read the paper posted on the door. As I watched the professor's face, it looked as if he were a child waking up to christmas morning. He just looked so happy. I wish I would get that excited about reading a piece of paper done by a janitor posted on the door. I dont think I will do that piece however. I found one at the place I work (Excel PT) that I would like to put together. "If spine or neck diagnosis, if female, bring sports bra or bathing suit top for evaluation. Otherwise a gown will be used." It will be a challenge to make that into a masterpiece poem, but Im excited!

Poems, poems, poems

As I read "Batter my heart, three-personed God" I felt like there was alot of emotions. To me the reader is talking about how he/she is trying to stay true to the three-personed God (Father, son, and Holy spirit) but its hard because his/her enemy (Satan) is engaging him/her into things that are not right. The reader says she/he still loves the three-personed God but he/she is weak. This I think relates to alot of believers. I know I struggle with sin every single day. But I still love the Lord and hope that He forgives me of my sins. When it says "never shall be free" I think it might be talking about the devil. One is never free of sin and the devil is everywhere you go. When I read William Shakespeare's "My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun" I thought is was very unromantic and mean. I thought he was judging his mistress on the way she looks, smells, sounds, and even moves. I noticed at the end it says "I think my love as rare", I wonder if he meant that everyone goes for "looks" but he looks on the inside. I never really understand Shakesphere. Im excited to talk about these poems in class cause it will be intersting to find out what they really mean!

Sonnet is just a poetic form. Its the words that make it special. I feel like Shaksphere's are good, but they are all very lovey dovey. Thats not really my style. Im goofy and dont really take anything seriously. So when I write my sonnet to my significant other (Billy) its not going to be how much I love him or how his eyes make me melt. It will be wierd and goofy like him! I dont think there is anything wrong with writing a goofy sonnet if that is more you. I know Billy would way rather hear a funny sonnet than a sonnet about my "love for him". Also just wanted to say I thought Garrets story was hilarious and he is such a great artist!

love sonnet to the best friend I love!

So today at the end of class we talked about writing a love sonnet. Professor talked about how sometimes people write them to their pets and thats when I thought about my dog, Zoey. she is my best friend and who better to write it to then your best friend. So i wrote one about Zoey instead of to Zoey.

My Best Friend

Zoey is my beautiful golden retriever
She is my true best friend whom I love
She makes me feel better when I'm home with a fever
She does get into trouble when she proudly brings home a dove
She loves to eat just like me
Her favorite things are playing catch and a belly rub
We call her a lap dog becuase she sits on my knee
She loves water and never hesitates to jump in the tub
She plays forever and will do anything for a snack
When zoey is around, I know I will have fun
Even though she is a dog, I know she will have my back
I love her and she will always be my number one